I am asked on occasion why I sometimes seem angry? How can someone who teaches spirituality ever be angry?
There is this misconception out there that when you are on your spiritual path you should always feel positive. It's a viewpoint that is really the opposite of true spirituality.
If we follow that viewpoint then anytime we feel angry, sad, jealous or fearful we shouldn't embrace those feelings. Hiding our emotions is the opposite of embracing our spirituality. We are emotional beings and we should accept and act on our emotions in a spiritual way.
If we don't embrace our authentic self fully then we aren't fully embracing our spirituality. Anger is an emotion and it is one that serves a purpose. Imagine all of your emotions as a stream running though your mind. Now what happens when we block off a stream? The water builds up and grows behind whatever is blocking it. This water builds pressure and grows deeper until it either flows over the dam or the pressure causes it to burst through. If we don't embrace our anger it stays locked away and gradually builds and builds until it can't be held back any longer.
The spiritual path teaches us to recognize our emotions and put them into perspective, then we can act on them rationally.
When it comes to anger, if we don't act on it it just builds behind a wall, it lurks and grows in the shadows of our mind. Slowly it taps into our spirit and diminishes it. Even worse, we try to cover it up with alcohol, food, sex or some other vice; or we release it in bursts, getting verbal or lashing out. We may cover it up by working extra hours or spending more money. We hide it behind things that aren't spiritual in any way.
A more spiritual approach is to recognize that the anger is there. Acknowledge it, meditate on it, and then find a path to express it. Spiritually when we reflect on it in meditation we can trace it back. You follow the trail of anger back to its root and when you do you'll probably find it had nothing to do with whatever set it off in you.
When you can embrace the anger, or any other emotion this way, you can see that you don't need to give in to the emotion and allow it to steal your spiritual energy. You own your feelings, you embrace the reality of them and you dig deeper into them.
Once you take the spiritual path to accepting your emotions then you can approach them with compassion. You let the emotion arise, look at where it came from, honor its place in you and determine the best path forward to deal with it.
Like all emotions, anger is a sacred feeling. It doesn't have to be bad, it shouldn't ever be harmful and the only time it will be a negative emotion is if you lose control of it.
Anger can allow you to sharpen your senses and learn from it. Anger can allow you to study it and then teach others what you learned from it. Anger is part of your authentic self and hiding from it leaves you less whole.
The problem with anger is that we hold it inside and the longer it dwells the more damage it can do. It will build resentments. It will cause you to find fault and blame others. Holding on to it builds grudges and hatred. This is why we are afraid of anger.
If you accept the emotion spiritually, and not let it get bottled up, then you can put it to use in your journey of peaceful spirituality. When you can act properly on it, then you can let it go, and move on peacefully, without regrets.
Emotions are part of the spirit. How we treat our emotions is what can take the good and make it bad. Honor your emotions in a honorable way and your path to peace stays clear and true.